"Art is not what you see, but what you make others see." Edgar Degas

Friday, May 20, 2016

The Surgeon

I have to go back in - there's no way around it. I don't know how it happened but I missed something.








I had that poor woman cut open on the table for more than three hours. I checked everything. But tests don't lie. She's still bleeding inside.

There aren't a lot of people whose judgment I respect as much as my own and they all agree. She's not going to make it unless we open her up again.





drawing by anthrpicdecadnce

It can't be her heart. I held that fucking thing in my hand and inspected every centimeter. I checked ever vessel in and out. There were no leaks. I don't know if that heart can survive another operation.

It's her kidney, I'd bet anything. The blade must have grazed it. That's the angle of the original wound.

I haven't prayed in a long time and I'm not going to start now but I'm going to need more strength than I currently have to pull this off. And if I can't...